Provider

I am starting to feel a little nervous about my financial situation. I took my dog to the vet last night and they wanted $300 for antibiotics and ear flushes and special dog food. Basically I went there and paid then $50 to tell me that my dog has allergies. DUH! I already knew that. I wanted some sort of relief from his itching, but it was too much money. I felt like such a bad mother walking out of there without any medication for him. I just can't afford it though. He is a healthy little guy though, but I just couldn't spend that money. I guess I just let him itch!?! This really made me mad at my husband. Here I am with my/our poor dog itching like crazy and I can't help him and my husband doesn't even know. He could probably care less. I am so thankful that I don't have any children right now. What if it were my little boy or girl who had allergies and needed skin tests and allergy medicine so that they wouldn't die! I am so thankful for that.

It made me feel a little scared. So many "what ifs" started running through my mind. I just really need to keep my budget on track and save as much money as I can. This is going to be hard, but it will build me up so much to know that I am living and doing things on my own. I don't need my husband, I want my husband.

God, please be my provider in every aspect of my life. I need you so much now and I can't do this without you. You provided me with a great apartment and I am trusting you to help me meet all of my bills and to have some in the mean time. Please help me! Jesus I need you so much right now. Please get me through this daily nightmare that I am living!! Be my provider, be the head of my house. Help me to keep pushing through these dark times. Help me to see the light at the end of the tunnel. Give me strength and wisdom. Help me to hear your voice....
Amen

This is what God can do. It's amazing...
Job 38 22-30
"Have you ever traveled to where snow is made,
seen the vault where hail is stockpiled,
The arsenals of hail and snow that I keep in readiness
for times of trouble and battle and war?
Can you find your way to where lightning is launched,
or to the place from which the wind blows?
Who do you suppose carves canyons
for the downpours of rain, and charts
the route of thunderstorms
That bring water to unvisited fields,
deserts no one ever lays eyes on,
Drenching the useless wastelands
so they're carpeted with wildflowers and grass?
And who do you think is the father of rain and dew,
the mother of ice and frost?
You don't for a minute imagine
these marvels of weather just happen, do you?