No Matter What

1 Thessalonians 5:16-18
Be cheerful no matter what; pray all the time; thank God no matter what happens. This is the way God wants you who belong to Christ Jesus to live.

This is a very hard scripture to follow and trust in. My life is crumbling all around me and I am supposed to be thankful? Why God? Why am I supposed to be thankful for the nightmare I am living? Why am I the one who has to suffer through all of this? Why me? Why my marriage? Why my husband? Well, I think I have come to terms with these questions. God has a plan for both me and my husband. He is preparing us for something that lies in our future. The question now is, is my husband going to heed God's calling on his life and listen to his urging?

I have come to really love this scripture:
Philippians 1:6
I am sure that the One who began a good work in you will carry it on until it is completed. That will be on the day Christ Jesus returns.

And it really just speaks to me regarding my husband. It gives me hope for my husbands future. I don't know what is going to happen or just how long this will last, but I know that my husband has a calling on his life and that God created him to do his work.

I spoke with a good family friend last night who has gone through this as well and she was just so encouraging and helped pull me out of my funk yesterday. I am going through this fire right now and I really, truly have no idea why. But what she helped me really realize last night is that God is allowing me to go through this for what does lie ahead. Hopefully some day I will be able to minister to women all over the country who are going through this nightmare themselves.

When we are looking at the situation and the actions of our loved ones, it hurts. The pain digs deeper than we ever thought possible. The roots of that pain begin to grow around our hearts and minds and our hope begins to fade. But if we can only fix our eyes on Him and trust him and have faith that he will carry us through this, things don't seem quite as bad. I keep telling myself not to look at what my husband is doing and his actions, but turn to God and focus my eyes on him. When I do that my spirit is lifted and I feel good, confident and strong. It is always easier said than done. But when I started to grab hold of what God could possibly be using me for in the future, my spirit got excited. I want to help people and I want to encourage them and show them there is hope.

I don't know what the outcome of my situation is going to be. I really have not idea and that can be a scary thought. But I am going to trust in my God and hang onto him for dear life through out all of this heartache, pain and misery. He has a plan and he is in control I just need to walk by faith.

Jeremy Camp has a wonderful song that I have really grabbed a hold of and it is titled "Walk By Faith" and it says this:

Would I believe you when you would say
Your hand will guide my every way
Will I receive the words
You say
Every moment of every day
[chorus]
Well I will walk by faith
Even when I cannot see
Well because this broken road
Prepares Your will for me
Help me to win my endless fears
You've been so faithful for all my years
With one breath
You make me new
Your grace covers all I do yeah, yeah , yeah, yeah, yeah, ya
[chorus]
Well I'm broken- but I still see
Your face
Well You've spoken- pouring
Your words of grace
[chorus x2]
Well hallelujah, hallelu
(I will walk by faith)
Well hallelujah, hallelu
(I will walk by faith)
I will walk, I will walk,
I will walk by faith I will,
I will, I will walk by faith

After reading through this, I felt that God was saying to me that it gives him great joy when we trust him and put our faith in him. He has given us freewill, but if we chose to put our trust in him rather doing what we want and wanting and trusting in what he wants for us he will surely bless us for doing so.

Psalm 18:25
Lord, to those who are faithful you show that you are faithful.