It's Here

The moment I had hoped would never come. He wants to give me divorce papers. Can I wake up now? Can this nightmare end? I am so completely devastated I couldn't even go into work today. All this week I have been trying to put all of my faith and trust in God. That is a very hard, hard thing to do, but my God will take care of me no matter what happens. My husband is making this choice on his own freewill...

I would still take him back. In a heartbeat. Sure there would be some much heartache and repairing to do, but it could be done. He just does not want that and that crushes me. He gave me 2 days to try and work things out. 2 days! Out of the 10 years we have been together, he loved me enough to give me 2 days.

You aren't the person I married. You are someone else and that is the most painful thing of all, because I know who you really are and you are a wonderful person. But you have chosen to ignore that and I am sorry you have changed to someone that chooses divorce over help and hard work. The man I married would have never asked for this. I want my Benny back. I want that sensitive person who just wanted to help people and to be their friend. I am sorry, but this is your choice, not mine.