Why Do I Doubt?

The human mind is so very frustrating! So many thoughts whirling about up there like leaves on a windy fall day. No real direction, no real purpose. They are just flying about uncontrolled. I just have so many thoughts and I feel like I just can't control them! What do I do???...

Huh, God just said "Fix your eyes on me!" I am so not worthy of him. I have let him down so many, many times and yet he is still here holding my hand and picking my back up when I need help.

It seems like in the mornings I am pretty down. I don't know why. Maybe because it's the beginning of another day and when I wake up, I remember where my life is right now. That is no fun at all! Anyway, I have been using Biblegateway.com a lot lately. This morning as I was getting settled in here at work, I was like "God, I need something this morning. I am feeling pretty yucky" and he did! Today's Verse of the Day is Jeremiah 32:17: 17 " 'Lord and King, you have reached out your great and powerful arm. You have made the heavens and the earth. Nothing is too hard for you."

There is that same theme again - anything. Nothing is too hard for him. That means he can do anything! Anything... without boundaries. He can do it!

So I decided to read that entire chapter in Jeremiah and that last few verses read:
42-44"Yes, this is God's Message: 'I will certainly bring this huge catastrophe on this people, but I will also usher in a wonderful life of prosperity. I promise. Fields are going to be bought here again, yes, in this very country that you assume is going to end up desolate—gone to the dogs, unlivable, wrecked by the Babylonians. Yes, people will buy farms again, and legally, with deeds of purchase, sealed documents, proper witnesses—and right here in the territory of Benjamin, and in the area around Jerusalem, around the villages of Judah and the hill country, the Shephelah and the Negev. I will restore everything that was lost.' God's Decree."

That is exactly how I feel in my life now. That there has been a a great catastrophe and that things are so hopeless and desolate. But, God! The last sentence reads "I will restore everything that was lost.' God's Decree."

So again I ask, why do I doubt?

Thank you God for these daily reminders that you love me and have given me the promise of restoration. Thank you... I am not worthy of you or your great love. Please help me to be patient and to put all of my trust in you.