Another Day

Why God? Why?
When God? When?
Just another day of feeling a little shaky and scared about what the future holds. I am doing my best. I did move into a new apartment on Sunday and I am very happy to have it. I spent last night there by myself and I am not really sure about the whole "single" living thing. I haven't ever had to live by myself and I know it will take some getting used to. I just want to be used to it now! Oh well... I really do love my new place though. It is in a great neighborhood and the apartment it's self is new, clean, nice and has a W/D! It really is a lovely apartment. I want to paint, but I need to choose colors and exactly what to paint. It will be nice to call it "home." I have felt sort of homeless over the past 6 weeks and I now have an address that is all mine. I haven't told my husband where I am living. I didn't even tell his parents for fear that they would spill the beans. It's kind of empowering to know that he doesn't know where I am. My cell number hasn't changed and neither has my e-mail address so he can get a hold of me it he wants to. It's been 6 weeks since I moved out of our old apartment and he hasn't contacted me once. He is a bad word that I won't say, but he is a very bad word!

I am just trying my best to hang in there and really, truly trust God and his plan. My new apartment was the third one I had planned to move into. The first two we ok apartments but neither of them worked out. I had set my mind that each one of the previous two apartments that I was going to move into and they were going to be my new place, but God! He had a plan and He provided me with an even greater apartment in an even greater location. After looking back, he really did provide me with more apartment than I had ever expected to have living on my own. I am so grateful! I need to stop feeling sorry for myself and just look at what he has provided me... Wow, I really hadn't thought about that, but he really did bless me with a wonderfully new, clean and safe apartment that is very close to family and friends!

God is good!