Desires of the Heart

I have been praying a lot today and I started praying out of the book of Psalm. That is a great book! Anyway, I have come to realize that I need to start praying that my hearts desires would like up with those of God. I really need to start praying that God's will be done in my life and my husbands life. I don't know what God's will looks like, but I have to trust that it is what is best. It may be that my dear husband and I are come back to together and our marriage is fully restored or it may be that my dear husband isn't in God's plan for my life and that there is possibly someone much better than my current husband that God has for me. If I can just grab ahold of that and hang on for dear life, then I will truly be walking in true peace and confidence in my God.

Psalm 6
1-2 Please, God, no more yelling, no more trips to the woodshed.
Treat me nice for a change;
I'm so starved for affection.
2-3 Can't you see I'm black-and-blue,
beat up badly in bones and soul?
God, how long will it take
for you to let up?
4-5 Break in, God, and break up this fight;
if you love me at all, get me out of here.
I'm no good to you dead, am I?
I can't sing in your choir if I'm buried in some tomb!
6-7 I'm tired of all this—so tired. My bed
has been floating forty days and nights
On the flood of my tears.
My mattress is soaked, soggy with tears.
The sockets of my eyes are black holes;
early blind, I squint and grope.
8-9 Get out of here, you Devil's crew:
at last God has heard my sobs.
My requests have all been granted,
my prayers are answered.
10 Cowards, my enemies disappear.
Disgraced, they turn tail and run.

I feel like I have been horribly beat up. I am beyond recognition. I am tired. Please stop. But finally today I feel a sense of reliefe, even if for the moment. I am going to trust God not only for my dear husband's life, but also for mine. If I can align my wants and my desires up with the will of God, then I can't lose. I will have the most rewarding relationship with him and a wonderful life.

God,
Make my hearts desires line up with your desires. Make me who you want me to be and no one else. Change me and my wants so that they are what you want. You way is perfect and I couldn't ask for more.