Getting Through

Each day that passes, it's a triumph that I didn't die that day from a shattered heart. I am living and can see more and more possibility in each day.

This weekend I get to move into my new apartment! I am so very excited about that. I want and need my own place. My sister and brother-in-law have been so helpful and understanding in allowing me to live with them over the past 5 weeks. I am so grateful for them. I am an adult though and I need to feel like an adult rather than a roommate. That was what college was for. Now I am 26 and even though I had always relied very heavily on my husband for love and support, I need to now rely on God and my own strength to get through this yuk.

I have decided to fast for another 3 days. I felt kind of distant from God last week and I need to seek his face diligently again and really see what is going in my life and what he wants to tell me.

God, I need you. I need you to take care of me and this situation. I can't do it myself. I trust you with my life, my marriage and my husband's life. I tired and I need you to take care of it.