Feeling Hopeless

I really don't know why I am feeling rather hopeless today. Nothing has changed much in the last day or so. Still no word from my husband. I am feeling pretty fearful that he has or is going to file for divorce soon. No one has told me this or indicated this move in anyway, but that thought is pretty prominent in my mind today. I hate it!

On Sunday I started praying that God would just end this whole thing wither it be by divorce or him coming back to me. Just end it! I am so sick and tired of thinking about it and him day in and day out. Does he even think about me? Who knows. He was pretty careless and heartless when I talked with him over a month ago. Such harsh word would come out of his month and I am just thinking "Who are you? You are not my husband. My husband would never say such cruel, unloving things to me." I am afraid he is going to take our tax check and either keep it from me or file divorce with that money. I know that probably sound out there, but you know I don't know what he is capable of now.

Ugh...