Weary

In my earlier post today, I said that I was feeling very tired emotionally. I am just tired of it all. Weary. I just want to stop and throw this burden off of me and continue to walk with out this huge load on me. Last night I was praying and I was telling God that I was afraid that I was going to give up and just quit this whole thing before his timing was right. I am very afraid that I am going to just give up. I want to, but I don't want to. My flesh tells me to quit. That's the easy thing to do, but my soul says to hang on, hang in there. Trust God. I go in and out of my fleshly desires on a daily basis. I think today is a flesh day. I am just a mess. Crying and sad. Ugh... I hate it! I am so tired of this.

I love Biblegateway.com. I know how certain scriptures go, but I don't know where to find them in the Bible. All I have to do is type a word or phrase and there it is. Well, I knew I was looking for the scripture that talks about taking on Jesus's burden. His yoke is light and easy to carry and I found it! Matthew 11:28-30: "Are you tired? Worn out? Burned out on religion? Come to me. Get away with me and you'll recover your life. I'll show you how to take a real rest. Walk with me and work with me—watch how I do it. Learn the unforced rhythms of grace. I won't lay anything heavy or ill-fitting on you. Keep company with me and you'll learn to live freely and lightly."

My husband loves to write. A few years ago I bought him a journal and he would write short stories or thoughts in it. He took a lot of pride in his writing and now I know why. I feel so free after writing. I am tempted to let him read my writings. I think he would appreciate them.

I wonder...