Strength Arising

Again this morning I woke with the thought that God's grace and mercy is renewed each day. What does that mean? I am not sure, but I'll take it. I was praying this morning and was reminded of this book I saw along time ago that caught my eye at the time. It is called "Power of a Praying Wife" and it's by Stormie Omartian. I haven't read it yet, but I went to her website and read an except and it feels very encouraging and directed right at me. I think I am going to try and find it on my lunch break at the Family Christian Bookstore.

Also this morning while I was driving to work, I was thinking and praying and a thought occurred to me. I feel like I have no chance at really winning my husband back. Like he is gone forever and I should just face it. But God told me that I should have hope and not dispair because I have him on my side and nothing can stand against him. Nothing! He sees and knows everything and is in control. I have the greatest strength and power in my court. God is in my corner and he doesn't want my husband out there wondering the streets and being with any girl. He wants me and him together. We are one and he made us for each other. I have never, ever doubted that my husband wasn't made for me. We are just one of the blessed ones that found each other when we did.

Each day I find new strength and take heart that God has a great plan for my life and an even greater calling that I hadn't even realized until all this has happened. I always thought that I would be a wife and mother with a good job, nice house and great husband. But now I feel that there is so much more that he wants out of me. Much, much more that I don't understand or know. But I do know that I want what God has for me. My mind is filled with thoughts of what is to come, but I need to take comfort that if I out myself into his hands then what is to come is his will, not mine. That is a scary thought at time, but also very exciting. God has a plan for, for my husband and for our marriage and our life together. There are so many pieces to his great puzzle, but put together, it makes a beautifully intricate puzzle that God has orchestrated from the beginning of time.

With each new day, comes new strength... maybe that's what "God's grace and mercy is renewed each day."