Perfect

As a human being, it's really hard to let go and let God. Very, very hard. We want what we want and there is no possible way to accept anything different. Personally, I am very afraid to pray for God's will be done. Why? Because I don't know what that looks like or how it's going to feel. But as I was thinking that and the fact that I need to pray for God's will, but do I really want it? Do I want God's will be done in my life and my husband's life? It's scary to think of the unknown and not really know what God is up to and what is going to happen. But as soon as I started thinking about that God reminded me of Psalms 18:30: "God's way is perfect. The word of the Lord doesn't have any flaws. He is like a shield to all who go to him for safety. "

Perfect, huh? So are you saying that my way may not be perfect? That what I want may not be the best for me? But I want what I want God! (As I stomp my foot and shake my finger at God.) That is the flesh talking. Don't give room to the flesh because it will always lead you astray. Stay in the Spirit. Understand that God has a divine plan for my life, if I am willing to accept it. Jeremiah 29:11 "I know the plans I have for you," announces the Lord. "I want you to enjoy success. I do not plan to harm you. I will give you hope for the years to come."

Hope. What a grand concept in my life right now. My husband had said that he didn't want to give me false hope by talking to me. News flash dear husband! It's not you who gives me hope. It's my God who give me hope. If I put my ear only to you, of course I wouldn't have any hope and why should I? You are human too! If I put my hope in you, then you will fail me every time. You might not do it on purpose, but you would fail me and I would be devastated. My hope lies in my Lord and that is where it shall remain.