Still

You know, I have so many thoughts and feelings swirling around in my body that it is amazing that I am still standing and not in a psych ward somewhere wearing a white jacket. My nerves and emotions have been fairly steady over the past week and I am thankful for that. Being on the roller coaster of emotions that I have been on over the past months is so tiring, both mentally and physically. Up, down, up, down, left, right, left, right. STOP!

Now, I am here - at this point in time that is forever life-changing and I feel such an inner peace and calmness. Peace that passes all understanding. I have a stillness that is truly amazing. I am okay and I am going to be okay. I know there will be some bad days to come, but I will be okay. God is showing me so much and revealing himself to me each and everyday. I am so thankful and I just stand in awe of his powerful hand that is moving through my life.

Dear Heavenly Father,
I am so thankful for all you have done for me. I am so thankful for everything in my life and the path you are leading me on. I don't know what the future holds or what your plan for me and my life is, but I accept it. Your will is perfect and I accept your perfect will for me in my life. I am not worthy of your love and forgiveness, but you freely give it to me nonetheless. I continue to ask you to fill me with you unfailing love. Fill me from head to toe. Make my cup run over with your presence. Guide me in the upcoming days and weeks. Show yourself fully to me. Wrap your loving arms around me and never let me go. Be the lamp unto my feet, the light unto my path. Thank you for saving me. Thank you for loving me and all of my imperfections. You are worthy to be praised.
Amen.