Fiery Furnace

This morning in my quiet time I read Daniel 3 about Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego and the fiery furnace. A few days ago this story came across my mind and quickly left as I didn't know where to find it in the Bible and I forgot about it. But at the time I remember thinking about having faith and how those boys really took more like a gigantic leap into the faith world when faced with the reality of being put into a furnace. Well, this morning I read the story and it hit home of course! I feel like I have been in a fiery furnace for the past 5 months and it just keeps getting hotter and hotter! What did it feel like to completely put your physical life into God's hands? I mean, here I am putting my marriage in God's hands and I commit my life into God's hands, but I don't feel an immediate threat of losing my life like they did. And at the same time they were SO confident of God and his power. They knew God was able to save them - beyond a shadow of a doubt. Where does that kind of faith come from? Can't I just take a pill and automatically be filled with that measure of faith? And, not only did they have that faith, but he met them right there in the fire! Wow... I want that! Sure I get the metaphor "God is with us wherever we go." But I want more. I want to see more of him! I want more, more, more!

I am going through a very tough and hot fire right now and I know He is with me. I know it. There are just some times where I feel alone. I know He is here, but I am human and can't always see past my own emotions. And I also crave that kind of faith. I want it so bad! To just be able to speak something and know it and believe it. It's like I have to constantly tell myself that I believe it. I don't really feel it in my head or my heart and so I have to remind myself over and over who He is and who I am and that He is able. He is able and He is with me always even in the fiery furnace.